Hide and Seek!

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Today we all have a bad habit of hiding our feelings from the people whom we are close to. This is where we start to mess things up. But this is not the only issue we all face. We hide our feelings from our close ones and yet expect them to understand us, without we telling them what is going on in our mind. I agree, but does it really work this way?

As a kid, we end up doing some things that are not to be done at that particular age, but somehow we end up doing it. Eventually, we have a bag of mixed feelings. On one hand, feeling an accomplishment that none other kid has achieved what you have. On the other, fear of not letting parents have any knowledge of our mischief. So in the fear of how our parents will react, we start hiding things from parents. To save ourselves from the scare of our parent’s reaction, we hide our joyous accomplishment. This is just one feeling, this is how and where things start to build and hiding of our emotions.

Then, as you grow, you hit puberty and start falling for that adorable girl in your class or the cute guy next door. We talk to them with butterflies in our stomach but never dare to express our feelings in the panic/hesitation of hearing a ‘No’ from that person.

Let’s jump a few years when we are reasonably adult, in our mid-20s, trying to gather all our stuff in a perfect manner in which we have secretly dreamed off. Also somehow things are working in proper synchronisation as we expected over the years but then again coming to camouflaging our feelings, the close friend for whom you had fallen for eventually and dreamt of having a life together, we do not express ourselves fearing to lose that beautiful friendship.

We don’t share the disagreement in front of our boss and be his pet to save the job and gain extra bonus at the end of the year. We start hiding our feelings to our siblings in making them happy enough while struggling with our own mess.

So, next time try to be expressive to the people you care the most for and even make them comfortable to express. Because everyone’s heart somewhere wants to sing along this music piece.

If you love me, don’t let go
If you love me, don’t let go

Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
‘Cause I’m a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Unsteady by X Ambassadors

Peace! ~ αm

Me and My Shadow | 3

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Previously on Me and My Shadow

The Treat

“Mumma…” Maya called out to her mom in a melodious voice.

Maya’s mom was shocked to see her daughter smile early in the morning. It had been a pretty long time she had woken up to Maya’s smile.

“Mumma could you please make a nice masala tea”, Maya chirped as she started applying butter to her break.

Her mom quickly started preparing the tea and suddenly felt wrapped in the warmth of her daughter’s arms.

Maya was hugging her mom.

“Maya, my dear, what is the matter with you today?” Her mom asked her.

“You remember Tej? I’ll be meeting him in a while. We were even talking over the phone last night, and I’m really looking forward to spending today’s day with him. It’s been ages since I’ve felt so much at home”, said Maya as she gasped for breath. She was so excited that she even forgot to breathe.

Her mom was so happy for her but at the same time a little bit worried. Her daughter was entering unknown territories which she had no clue led to which place. *typical parents*

On the other hand, Maya was jubilant and excited. She searched her entire wardrobe and got out her most lovely dress. The black one piece that had been saving for a special occasion. That day she decided to let her hair loose and even applied some kajal in her eyes. Maya hadn’t felt so beautiful in a while, but today she was in a mood to doll up.

Maya grabbed her keys and her phone and bid farewell to her mom. She then sat in her car, put on her seat belt, turned on her phone and then called Tej.

She then sat in her car, put on her seat belt, turned on her phone and then called Tej.“Hello”, said Maya.

“Hello”, said Maya. “Hello? Have you seen the time?” came Tej’s voice from the other side. “You were supposed to pick me up at 10. It’s already 11 and to top it your phone was switched off.”

“I’m sorry, I overslept. I’ll be there in 15 mins” Maya said and hung up even before Tej could say anything.As she said, she was at his place in 15 mins, and he was waiting for her.

As she said, she was at his place in 15 mins, and he was waiting for her.

Maya had dolled up, but Tej had decided to ditch the jeans for a comfortable pair of tracks and an incredibly loose t-shirt.He sat in Maya’s car and looked at her in surprise, “Hello, madam? Are you going to some party?” asked Tej. “No. I was just feeling pretty.” Smiled Maya.

Then Maya drove him to a charming restaurant about an hour away from their home. They had never been here. He asked her as to how did she know about the place. Smiling, she said, “I had a life before we met Tej.” This restaurant was among the fancy ones. The types we go on a special occasion.

“Maya, you could have at least told me we would be coming to such a place. I would have dressed up accordingly” Tej said in a hushed voice. “Don’t worry Tej. The owner of this place is my dad friend. No formalities required. Chill.” Maya comforted him and tried to make him feel at home.They ordered lunch as per their wish. Surprisingly Maya’s and Tej’s tastes were completely different, yet they got along so well.

When the bill came, Tej leant in to grab it, but Maya was quick.“My treat!” She exclaimed. “But why? And from when did you start giving lunch treats?” Tej asked, confused. “Just. There is no compulsion that you will pay always. Let me pay today.” Maya said. Tej chose not to argue with her and let her do as she wished.

On their way back home, Maya stopped by the river that flowed through their city. “I want to look at the sunset,” Maya said.

“Okay”, Tej said. As it is today’s day was dedicated to Maya. So he thought it would be a good idea to do things that made her happy. As they sat along the banks of the river and waited for the sun to disappear over the horizon, Tej put his hand on Maya’s shoulder and again looked at her. This time Maya also looked right back into his eyes. He then put his hand in his pocket and brought out a Pen Drive.

On the pen drive was scribbled the words “Project MAYA”.

“This is my dream Maya. This is my life and only you can make it happen.” Said Tej.

“Why such a mystery Tej? Why can’t you tell me what is it about?” Maya was full of questions.

“I need you to go through each and every file in this pen drive. This, Maya, is what will turn our lives around. This is the wake-up call, and there is no better person I would want to be a part of it.” Tej said in a serious voice.

“Okay, I’ll study it. And yeah, I’ll always be there without you no matter what” Maya promised and hugged him.

Maya knew that she was right when she thought that Tej wasn’t in love with her. In fact, there was a wider picture of it. She just wasn’t able to see through it. But how could she even have, Tej has always been the mysterious kinds. What she was sure of was that now that he had opened up, her life was bound to take an entirely different course.

As the sun set, it was time for them to get home leaving the past behind while walking towards a bright future.

That night, the air in Maya’s room was filled with confidence and faith – self-confidence and trust in her best friend, Tej.

Me and My Shadow | 2

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Previously on Me and My Shadow

Haunting Hour

Later that night, Maya impatiently twisted and turned as all her attempts to fall asleep had failed. Neither did the hot milk work and nor could music calm her restless mind.

“Arr”, she grunted and sat up on her bed.

The only thing on her mind was ‘Tej’.

Maya couldn’t get over the way Tej was staring at her. No, it wasn’t their first meeting, and no, Tej wasn’t new to her, and no, this was not the first time she had noticed Tej starting at her in a similar manner but, this was the first time upon asking Tej had very bluntly replied that he was staring at her.

“Why was he staring at me?”

“Well, maybe there was something wrong with my hair or there was something on my face…”

“But then why didn’t he tell me so?”

“Maybe he was just enjoying the moment.”

“But then what was that I saw in his eyes? That sparkle, that glow, that weird consciousness, what was that?

“I must be overthinking, or maybe was it, Lo…???”

“Arrrrgggghhhhh…creepy thought Maya!”

Maya knew that her mind and heart were playing games with her and she hated it. She considered herself to be a warrior who had no place and time for emotions in her life. (No, don’t get me wrong, it’s not that she didn’t feel for anyone, it’s just that she felt that emotions were the root cause of one’s weakness!)

But then what she couldn’t fathom was that why on earth was she thinking about Tej at this hour!? She felt all the more restless and reached out for her phone to see the time. It’s read 3:07 am.

“This is the haunting hour”, Maya giggled, “And maybe that’s why I am thinking about him.”

Actually, Tej was no less than “Casper(the friendly ghost)” in Maya’s life. They had met out of nowhere, they suddenly got attached to each other, and he knew everything about her, but she barely knew anything about him. Unlike a ghost, Tej didn’t trouble Maya, maybe that’s what distinguished him.

Maya knew that she had to calm herself down and the best way was to talk to Tej. She thought of calling him directly but then decided to check his social media to see if he online.

“Online”, it read.

She immediately typed, “Hey.”

“Hey”, Tej responded.

“What are you doing up so late? You are the one who goes to bed early right?”, Maya was curious to know.

“Actually, I’ve been thinking…oh never mind. I’ll sleep now you also sleep.” Tej told Maya.

“Actually, You’ve been thinking about Me!” Maya completed Tej’s message.

“Hey, how do you know?” He replied.

“You aren’t alone in it!” She replied.

*tring-tring* Maya’s phone rang

“Hello”, came the voice from the other side.

“Hello”, said Maya.

“You know, it’s until a week that we are gonna meet next. I wish we could catch up sometimes during the week.” Tej told Maya.

“How about tomorrow itself? I am anyway free and didn’t know what to do. You seem to be the perfect one to spend the day with.” Maya responded.

Maya wasn’t actually free, she had promised to take her mother out for shopping but none the less she couldn’t say “No” to Tej.

“Sounds cool.” Tej said.

“I’ll pick you up at around 10:00 am from your house”, Maya told him.

“Okay, so I guess we better sleep then else both of us will have dark circles”, Tej laughed.
His laugh even brought a smile on Maya’s lips.

“Good Night Tej” Maya whispered as a cool breeze blew in from her window.

“Good Night Maya.” Tej said in a low baritone.

As the night grew on them, both lay wide awake in bed still waiting for the sun to rise.

Peace! ~ αm ft. @365days365stories

Early Birds vs Night Owls

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Everyone has their unique style of living and completing their work or enjoying the entertainment. The Same way we all have our own habit to stay awake at night or to wake up early and enjoy the morning. Frankly speaking, I’m both types of Person that is Morning Person as well as Night Person because I love to enjoy both Bright Sunny Day and Dark Silent Night. Both have their ups and downs, but they will be viewed by everyone’s point of view rather mine, but somewhere they agree on the downs of their choice.

The thing with morning is that they much fresher than nights. Your mind and soul are not at all tired to start some new work or complete one of your pending work. Surely for making your sleeping pattern such that you wake up early is a tedious job but surely its worth the efforts. But that early morning run which you had and then the fresh cup of coffee with some lip-smacking sandwich, the man then can surely make your day.

And similarly with the night the pitch black silence is useful for concentrating over an unfinished job but it does affect your sleeping pattern and over a period of time it gives one or the other health issues which no one really wants it. But while staring at the moon you surely can miss someone special, call them up and have a conversation with them while both looking at the moon (your personal own virtual video calling) can be one of your splendid romantic night you spend with some distance between you two.

But between with this two, the connecting element is here the sleep which is needed the most the most to any person as it’s the to time charge up yourself for next activity. The change in the sleep pattern can actually you affect too much which you may not even give a thought also to it. As I mentioned early it affects your health but it also affects your behavioural pattern or in the words, you will have more moods swings than you used in your normal days.

So my suggestion will be pin point, enjoy both the habits but also make sure you have a sound sleep to have healthy future. It takes a lot to keep yourself healthy and the way to be healthy is sleep and enjoy yourself the Energetic Morning and Classy Nights.

PEACE! ~ αm