Fake Promises.


The moment the words were in my ears,
I knew this moment will be recalled in different occasion of my life.
I took a deep breath and decided to escape,
but life never is as simple as we think,
the more I tried to get out of the mushy land the more I was sinking in.
It can help you get going from a dead stop,
but once you actually start moving, it does nothing.
The rules were the ones where
one should know the mojo.
The mojo which defines how to move out,
to start all your life with all new dreams which are never shared with them.
The dreams, the care, the love which was shared,
vanishes quicker than we realise because at the end of the day,
the connection was a fake one.
Because after giving in everything you still had to fight to make them stay,
is the most unethical relation you were in.
The lips which once said,
“Promise me you’ll never leave me.”
were the ones who never spoke the reason,
and they left without a word,
without an explanation.

Peace! ~ αm

(P.S.: Yesterday morning as the blogger was about to travel to some other city, he was up early and pinged me with the above poem. The first thing I questioned him was, ‘How on earth you wrote this poem?’ and I immediately knew I need to share this one and previous one. Having the account credentials I took the liberty to publish them. I know he is going to scold me for publishing it, but I hope he won’t kill me. Regards, V.)


Last 36 hours…


I’d quickly wrapped my meetings for the day and I was free by second half so I called few of my friends to see who is free to catch up for the new movie justice league.

Fortunately or unfortunately only one was free, she was ready to come for the movie. We both reached the mall I quickly took some munches and headed towards the multiplex. After entering in she started going in one screen, I asked her “The movie will start after 15mins why are we going in right away?” “Actually Milu, we are not going to watch Justice League, we are going to watch Qarib Qarib Singlle.” She replied and bang I lost my temper I should have realised it when she said will book the tickets I didn’t realise it was a trick which she played her. Her intention for booking the ticket was to make me watch a Bollywood movie rather than going to the Justice League. (P.S.: So guys if your female says she will book the ticket never ever trust her, it is a trick to watch some romantic Bollywood movie). She literally dragged me into the movie only in one term and condition I’m not at all paying for the movie and dinner, later on, to which she agreed.

Ok, here is the twist in the article the movie was actually good after a long time I really enjoyed a Bollywood flick. Actually, I’m in love with Parvathy Menon, a perfect South Indian lady with brilliant expression. (P.S.: Guys sometimes, I repeat sometimes let the girl decide some random Bollywood movie, you never know you may fall in love with the actress and get a new celebrity crush in your life.)

So after the movie my friend had to leave for Bengaluru to meet one of her interior designing customers, she asked me if I can join her I gave it a thought and her bribe that I will get to some real South Indian beauty on the trip made me influenced to join her. She quickly checked that is there any seats available for the same bus in which she was travelling fortunately got one slot, two different berths but the same bus. After boarding the bus did little maska pani to one double bedded passengers they agreed we move to there seats and the craziest journey of my life began. We started off around 8 o’clock from Mumbai had the food we parcel on our way and started binge watching FRIENDS. By the time bus took its first halt for refreshments around 12 in the night we had already completed season, but the fun part was the fellow passengers who had seen us laughing all this time gave us some ridiculous looks for laughing on the top of our voices in a public bus. We both controlled our laughter over the looks which we got.

After the bus started again towards Bengaluru we continued our binge-watching but this time we got complains from the passengers so we eventually we wrapped up the episode and decided to sleep. My phone started ringing at 7 o’clock next morning I disconnected initial few calls and the 5th call was from my dad I can’t disconnect this one so I answered the call, “Where are you? Why are you not answering to mom? Why was your phone not reachable from last one hour and which is the service provider replying in some South Indian language?” I was bombarded with some questions. Before I answer them dad reminded me of the Pooja was on very next day at 8 in the morning back at Nashik, and before answering to all the previous questions I realised I’m screwed royally this time. “Dad I’m headed to Bengaluru right now for some business work, I had fallen asleep so didn’t answer mum. Yeah, I’ll make sure I’ll reach tomorrow before 8.30 am.” I quickly lied to dad. But he is my father he knew my marketing region is no longer is in South so he said, “My dearest son, you no longer work in the southern region so stop making me fool and as of now do whatever you are doing but reach tomorrow quickly, you’ll tell me truth tomorrow after Pooja.” “Uh! Okay, dad.”

I panicked out and called a friend of mine, asked him to get him the fastest and cheapest way to reach to Nashik. He checked out buses, train and flight none of them was helpful for me to reach, buses had an awkward timing, one single train to Mumbai which took 24 hours to reach which would leave Bengaluru at 7 in the evening and flight tickets were expensive to make me broke for a couple of weeks. I’ll criticise this ahole some other day for now just consider it was a wrong decision to call him and seek to advise I took he simply asked me to skip the Pooja back at Nasik.

I calmed down myself, called maa and see if the pooja can be postponed at least for a couple of hours to which maa initially scolded me later said she can try to postpone at least for one hour only. That’s all I wanted at least that I thought so at the particular moment. I called up old contacts at Bengaluru, he said he will try to get me some arrangements to reach back as soon as possible.

We reach Bengaluru at 1 pm, she visited the site of the customer I started calling several people for making an arranging vehicle to reach Nasik in next 20 hours, that’s 9.30 am. Got cheapest option to take a private cab till Pune which was charging us nearly Rs. 6,000, to which we had to other option to agree as the next bus departs from Bengaluru is at 3.30 and we had to leave the city in next 30-45 mins. We agreed I took snacks and few cartons of juice while driving to the site of the customer. 2 o’clock we started off with huge traffic in front of us. A real test of patience can be seen only in such situation where every minute counts and you are stuck in traffic.

3.30 we reached Nelamangala By-Pass 15 mins delayed than the usual time that what the driver informed us. My phone rang, Incoming call… Maa… “Hello beta! so are you coming tomorrow or we should complete the pooja without you?” “No, I’m already on my way back home. No need to worry I will surely reach Nasik by 9.30” I replied her back. “That sounds interesting if you by then. I surely have to distribute sweets throughout Nasik” she said in a sarcastic manner, “Not so funny Maa.” I replied.  “Son you have created this mess for yourselves I’ll simply enjoy the whole show as of now. Bye!” “Bye.” the call got disconnected. I felt like maa is playing “Khatam Kahani” from Qarib Qarib Singlle in the background.

The driver was a professional one just a right Angel for us at this right moment. He drove a perfect speed with proper safely switching the lanes. In all this, we both were now helpless just wait and reach Pune safely and calmly. The E.T.A. to reach Pune was 4 o’clock in the morning, and then catch another cab or bus till Nasik. Whichever was first available for us to reach.

We started playing the songs of the iconic movie, Dil Chahta Hai. No matter what the situation is songs from this particular movie perfectly blends in the car journey. We started sharing different stories of the several trips which we had been individual or with someone. The driver also joined in telling stories of his several journeys where his customers have travelled. Laughed our hearts out on the several incidences which we came across in last 24 hours and what more is in line for us to experience.

We decided to take a halt for 15 mins at the very next restaurant. We came across few restaurant before deciding the decent one, we quickly took our refreshments. Now, this the important part, the bill amount was 536₹ and when the cashier swiped the card he made a transaction of 356₹ I realised this as soon as he handed me over the customer slip, the first thing I asked the driver and the friend is to leave the restaurant as soon as possible. Agreed, a difference of 180₹ is not that huge or we can’t pay that sum, but getting a free discount in any form will always be joyful if you know how it really feels. The driver and my friend didn’t realise what exactly happened at that particular moment but after we rushed out of the place I told them the discount benefit we got making us a shoplifter without actually wanted to be one, at this moment. It has the same feeling like the irritating the local shopkeeper outside your college where you have shoplifted few chocolates just to tease him and having fun in getting free chocolates will always be joyful.

I somehow convinced to the driver to let me driver for certain stretch, I really can’t skip the idea of not driving a car when I am on the highway and grabbing this opportunity was simply great. The Mumbai-Bengaluru highway has been a great road which I have seen many times but driving on it was simply more fun. My friend started to play Ed Sheeran’s “Castle on the Hill”

But I can’t wait to go home
I’m on my way
Driving at 90 down those country lanes
Singing to “Tiny Dancer”
And I miss the way
You make me feel
And it’s real

These lines were the perfect catalyst to make us high on the trip, even though we both visit Nasik regularly.

As night comes closer and we both were tired as hell from this long journey we eventually dozed off around 9 o’clock which was way earlier than we expected. Around 3 in the morning I woke up with a jerk that I missed out the early bus to Nasik. The driver assured me we are on right track and but kinda late like 30 mins or so. I came up the front seat and let my friend occupy the last seats completely. We reached Pune, Nashik Phatta around, 5 o’clock which was nearly 45 mins delayed from the E.T.A. which we had initially. We got fresh up at one of the local restaurant, adieu the driver who was the Angel for us (surely have to be in contact with him) and took the very next bus direct to Nasik.

7.30 am my phone starts ringing, Incoming Call… Maa… and my heart skipped a beat. “Good Morning Maa…” I said as I answered the phone call, “Good Morning so are you attending the Pooja or not?” Maa quickly questioned me. “Of course Maa, I’m about to reach by 9.30. I have left Pune a long time ago.” I replied to her question. “Wah! That’s great see you soon beta. Bye.” “Bye Maa.” It was the tiniest achievement which I was going to achieve in next couple of hours.

9.30 got a call from Dad, asking the same question that is I am attending the Pooja or not. Running late due to useless halts of the bus delayed me to reach me on time to Nasik, I said I’ll be home by 10 o’clock maximum, to which he replied “Let’s see, we are starting the Pooja hope you reach on time.” and disconnected the call.

And finally, I reached home by 10.05 am I think so because this paragraph is being written a day later after all the things being handled. Even though the Dark Side was strong making sure I don’t reach Nasik on time I somehow managed to reach home nearly on time because the force was with me. Really sorry for that Star Wars Puns, but this trip was the craziest one which I ever did. Period. Even my friend has reached home safely and called up the driver to know about his whereabouts he got another customer back till Bengaluru but he didn’t have the fun while going back like he did with us.

Nothing behind me, everything ahead of me, as is ever so on the road. – Jack Kerouac

Peace! ~ αm


Hide and Seek!


Today we all have a bad habit of hiding our feelings from the people whom we are close to. This is where we start to mess things up. But this is not the only issue we all face. We hide our feelings from our close ones and yet expect them to understand us, without we telling them what is going on in our mind. I agree, but does it really work this way?

As a kid, we end up doing some things that are not to be done at that particular age, but somehow we end up doing it. Eventually, we have a bag of mixed feelings. On one hand, feeling an accomplishment that none other kid has achieved what you have. On the other, fear of not letting parents have any knowledge of our mischief. So in the fear of how our parents will react, we start hiding things from parents. To save ourselves from the scare of our parent’s reaction, we hide our joyous accomplishment. This is just one feeling, this is how and where things start to build and hiding of our emotions.

Then, as you grow, you hit puberty and start falling for that adorable girl in your class or the cute guy next door. We talk to them with butterflies in our stomach but never dare to express our feelings in the panic/hesitation of hearing a ‘No’ from that person.

Let’s jump a few years when we are reasonably adult, in our mid-20s, trying to gather all our stuff in a perfect manner in which we have secretly dreamed off. Also somehow things are working in proper synchronisation as we expected over the years but then again coming to camouflaging our feelings, the close friend for whom you had fallen for eventually and dreamt of having a life together, we do not express ourselves fearing to lose that beautiful friendship.

We don’t share the disagreement in front of our boss and be his pet to save the job and gain extra bonus at the end of the year. We start hiding our feelings to our siblings in making them happy enough while struggling with our own mess.

So, next time try to be expressive to the people you care the most for and even make them comfortable to express. Because everyone’s heart somewhere wants to sing along this music piece.

If you love me, don’t let go
If you love me, don’t let go

Hold on
Hold on to me
‘Cause I’m a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Unsteady by X Ambassadors

Peace! ~ αm

Me and My Shadow | 3


Previously on Me and My Shadow

The Treat

“Mumma…” Maya called out to her mom in a melodious voice.

Maya’s mom was shocked to see her daughter smile early in the morning. It had been a pretty long time she had woken up to Maya’s smile.

“Mumma could you please make a nice masala tea”, Maya chirped as she started applying butter to her break.

Her mom quickly started preparing the tea and suddenly felt wrapped in the warmth of her daughter’s arms.

Maya was hugging her mom.

“Maya, my dear, what is the matter with you today?” Her mom asked her.

“You remember Tej? I’ll be meeting him in a while. We were even talking over the phone last night, and I’m really looking forward to spending today’s day with him. It’s been ages since I’ve felt so much at home”, said Maya as she gasped for breath. She was so excited that she even forgot to breathe.

Her mom was so happy for her but at the same time a little bit worried. Her daughter was entering unknown territories which she had no clue led to which place. *typical parents*

On the other hand, Maya was jubilant and excited. She searched her entire wardrobe and got out her most lovely dress. The black one piece that had been saving for a special occasion. That day she decided to let her hair loose and even applied some kajal in her eyes. Maya hadn’t felt so beautiful in a while, but today she was in a mood to doll up.

Maya grabbed her keys and her phone and bid farewell to her mom. She then sat in her car, put on her seat belt, turned on her phone and then called Tej.

She then sat in her car, put on her seat belt, turned on her phone and then called Tej.“Hello”, said Maya.

“Hello”, said Maya. “Hello? Have you seen the time?” came Tej’s voice from the other side. “You were supposed to pick me up at 10. It’s already 11 and to top it your phone was switched off.”

“I’m sorry, I overslept. I’ll be there in 15 mins” Maya said and hung up even before Tej could say anything.As she said, she was at his place in 15 mins, and he was waiting for her.

As she said, she was at his place in 15 mins, and he was waiting for her.

Maya had dolled up, but Tej had decided to ditch the jeans for a comfortable pair of tracks and an incredibly loose t-shirt.He sat in Maya’s car and looked at her in surprise, “Hello, madam? Are you going to some party?” asked Tej. “No. I was just feeling pretty.” Smiled Maya.

Then Maya drove him to a charming restaurant about an hour away from their home. They had never been here. He asked her as to how did she know about the place. Smiling, she said, “I had a life before we met Tej.” This restaurant was among the fancy ones. The types we go on a special occasion.

“Maya, you could have at least told me we would be coming to such a place. I would have dressed up accordingly” Tej said in a hushed voice. “Don’t worry Tej. The owner of this place is my dad friend. No formalities required. Chill.” Maya comforted him and tried to make him feel at home.They ordered lunch as per their wish. Surprisingly Maya’s and Tej’s tastes were completely different, yet they got along so well.

When the bill came, Tej leant in to grab it, but Maya was quick.“My treat!” She exclaimed. “But why? And from when did you start giving lunch treats?” Tej asked, confused. “Just. There is no compulsion that you will pay always. Let me pay today.” Maya said. Tej chose not to argue with her and let her do as she wished.

On their way back home, Maya stopped by the river that flowed through their city. “I want to look at the sunset,” Maya said.

“Okay”, Tej said. As it is today’s day was dedicated to Maya. So he thought it would be a good idea to do things that made her happy. As they sat along the banks of the river and waited for the sun to disappear over the horizon, Tej put his hand on Maya’s shoulder and again looked at her. This time Maya also looked right back into his eyes. He then put his hand in his pocket and brought out a Pen Drive.

On the pen drive was scribbled the words “Project MAYA”.

“This is my dream Maya. This is my life and only you can make it happen.” Said Tej.

“Why such a mystery Tej? Why can’t you tell me what is it about?” Maya was full of questions.

“I need you to go through each and every file in this pen drive. This, Maya, is what will turn our lives around. This is the wake-up call, and there is no better person I would want to be a part of it.” Tej said in a serious voice.

“Okay, I’ll study it. And yeah, I’ll always be there without you no matter what” Maya promised and hugged him.

Maya knew that she was right when she thought that Tej wasn’t in love with her. In fact, there was a wider picture of it. She just wasn’t able to see through it. But how could she even have, Tej has always been the mysterious kinds. What she was sure of was that now that he had opened up, her life was bound to take an entirely different course.

As the sun set, it was time for them to get home leaving the past behind while walking towards a bright future.

That night, the air in Maya’s room was filled with confidence and faith – self-confidence and trust in her best friend, Tej.

Me and My Shadow | 2


Previously on Me and My Shadow

Haunting Hour

Later that night, Maya impatiently twisted and turned as all her attempts to fall asleep had failed. Neither did the hot milk work and nor could music calm her restless mind.

“Arr”, she grunted and sat up on her bed.

The only thing on her mind was ‘Tej’.

Maya couldn’t get over the way Tej was staring at her. No, it wasn’t their first meeting, and no, Tej wasn’t new to her, and no, this was not the first time she had noticed Tej starting at her in a similar manner but, this was the first time upon asking Tej had very bluntly replied that he was staring at her.

“Why was he staring at me?”

“Well, maybe there was something wrong with my hair or there was something on my face…”

“But then why didn’t he tell me so?”

“Maybe he was just enjoying the moment.”

“But then what was that I saw in his eyes? That sparkle, that glow, that weird consciousness, what was that?

“I must be overthinking, or maybe was it, Lo…???”

“Arrrrgggghhhhh…creepy thought Maya!”

Maya knew that her mind and heart were playing games with her and she hated it. She considered herself to be a warrior who had no place and time for emotions in her life. (No, don’t get me wrong, it’s not that she didn’t feel for anyone, it’s just that she felt that emotions were the root cause of one’s weakness!)

But then what she couldn’t fathom was that why on earth was she thinking about Tej at this hour!? She felt all the more restless and reached out for her phone to see the time. It’s read 3:07 am.

“This is the haunting hour”, Maya giggled, “And maybe that’s why I am thinking about him.”

Actually, Tej was no less than “Casper(the friendly ghost)” in Maya’s life. They had met out of nowhere, they suddenly got attached to each other, and he knew everything about her, but she barely knew anything about him. Unlike a ghost, Tej didn’t trouble Maya, maybe that’s what distinguished him.

Maya knew that she had to calm herself down and the best way was to talk to Tej. She thought of calling him directly but then decided to check his social media to see if he online.

“Online”, it read.

She immediately typed, “Hey.”

“Hey”, Tej responded.

“What are you doing up so late? You are the one who goes to bed early right?”, Maya was curious to know.

“Actually, I’ve been thinking…oh never mind. I’ll sleep now you also sleep.” Tej told Maya.

“Actually, You’ve been thinking about Me!” Maya completed Tej’s message.

“Hey, how do you know?” He replied.

“You aren’t alone in it!” She replied.

*tring-tring* Maya’s phone rang

“Hello”, came the voice from the other side.

“Hello”, said Maya.

“You know, it’s until a week that we are gonna meet next. I wish we could catch up sometimes during the week.” Tej told Maya.

“How about tomorrow itself? I am anyway free and didn’t know what to do. You seem to be the perfect one to spend the day with.” Maya responded.

Maya wasn’t actually free, she had promised to take her mother out for shopping but none the less she couldn’t say “No” to Tej.

“Sounds cool.” Tej said.

“I’ll pick you up at around 10:00 am from your house”, Maya told him.

“Okay, so I guess we better sleep then else both of us will have dark circles”, Tej laughed.
His laugh even brought a smile on Maya’s lips.

“Good Night Tej” Maya whispered as a cool breeze blew in from her window.

“Good Night Maya.” Tej said in a low baritone.

As the night grew on them, both lay wide awake in bed still waiting for the sun to rise.

Peace! ~ αm ft. @365days365stories

Early Birds vs Night Owls


Everyone has their unique style of living and completing their work or enjoying the entertainment. The Same way we all have our own habit to stay awake at night or to wake up early and enjoy the morning. Frankly speaking, I’m both types of Person that is Morning Person as well as Night Person because I love to enjoy both Bright Sunny Day and Dark Silent Night. Both have their ups and downs, but they will be viewed by everyone’s point of view rather mine, but somewhere they agree on the downs of their choice.

The thing with morning is that they much fresher than nights. Your mind and soul are not at all tired to start some new work or complete one of your pending work. Surely for making your sleeping pattern such that you wake up early is a tedious job but surely its worth the efforts. But that early morning run which you had and then the fresh cup of coffee with some lip-smacking sandwich, the man then can surely make your day.

And similarly with the night the pitch black silence is useful for concentrating over an unfinished job but it does affect your sleeping pattern and over a period of time it gives one or the other health issues which no one really wants it. But while staring at the moon you surely can miss someone special, call them up and have a conversation with them while both looking at the moon (your personal own virtual video calling) can be one of your splendid romantic night you spend with some distance between you two.

But between with this two, the connecting element is here the sleep which is needed the most the most to any person as it’s the to time charge up yourself for next activity. The change in the sleep pattern can actually you affect too much which you may not even give a thought also to it. As I mentioned early it affects your health but it also affects your behavioural pattern or in the words, you will have more moods swings than you used in your normal days.

So my suggestion will be pin point, enjoy both the habits but also make sure you have a sound sleep to have healthy future. It takes a lot to keep yourself healthy and the way to be healthy is sleep and enjoy yourself the Energetic Morning and Classy Nights.

PEACE! ~ αm