Me and My Shadow | 3

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Previously on Me and My Shadow

The Treat

“Mumma…” Maya called out to her mom in a melodious voice.

Maya’s mom was shocked to see her daughter smile early in the morning. It had been a pretty long time she had woken up to Maya’s smile.

“Mumma could you please make a nice masala tea”, Maya chirped as she started applying butter to her break.

Her mom quickly started preparing the tea and suddenly felt wrapped in the warmth of her daughter’s arms.

Maya was hugging her mom.

“Maya, my dear, what is the matter with you today?” Her mom asked her.

“You remember Tej? I’ll be meeting him in a while. We were even talking over the phone last night, and I’m really looking forward to spending today’s day with him. It’s been ages since I’ve felt so much at home”, said Maya as she gasped for breath. She was so excited that she even forgot to breathe.

Her mom was so happy for her but at the same time a little bit worried. Her daughter was entering unknown territories which she had no clue led to which place. *typical parents*

On the other hand, Maya was jubilant and excited. She searched her entire wardrobe and got out her most lovely dress. The black one piece that had been saving for a special occasion. That day she decided to let her hair loose and even applied some kajal in her eyes. Maya hadn’t felt so beautiful in a while, but today she was in a mood to doll up.

Maya grabbed her keys and her phone and bid farewell to her mom. She then sat in her car, put on her seat belt, turned on her phone and then called Tej.

She then sat in her car, put on her seat belt, turned on her phone and then called Tej.“Hello”, said Maya.

“Hello”, said Maya. “Hello? Have you seen the time?” came Tej’s voice from the other side. “You were supposed to pick me up at 10. It’s already 11 and to top it your phone was switched off.”

“I’m sorry, I overslept. I’ll be there in 15 mins” Maya said and hung up even before Tej could say anything.As she said, she was at his place in 15 mins, and he was waiting for her.

As she said, she was at his place in 15 mins, and he was waiting for her.

Maya had dolled up, but Tej had decided to ditch the jeans for a comfortable pair of tracks and an incredibly loose t-shirt.He sat in Maya’s car and looked at her in surprise, “Hello, madam? Are you going to some party?” asked Tej. “No. I was just feeling pretty.” Smiled Maya.

Then Maya drove him to a charming restaurant about an hour away from their home. They had never been here. He asked her as to how did she know about the place. Smiling, she said, “I had a life before we met Tej.” This restaurant was among the fancy ones. The types we go on a special occasion.

“Maya, you could have at least told me we would be coming to such a place. I would have dressed up accordingly” Tej said in a hushed voice. “Don’t worry Tej. The owner of this place is my dad friend. No formalities required. Chill.” Maya comforted him and tried to make him feel at home.They ordered lunch as per their wish. Surprisingly Maya’s and Tej’s tastes were completely different, yet they got along so well.

When the bill came, Tej leant in to grab it, but Maya was quick.“My treat!” She exclaimed. “But why? And from when did you start giving lunch treats?” Tej asked, confused. “Just. There is no compulsion that you will pay always. Let me pay today.” Maya said. Tej chose not to argue with her and let her do as she wished.

On their way back home, Maya stopped by the river that flowed through their city. “I want to look at the sunset,” Maya said.

“Okay”, Tej said. As it is today’s day was dedicated to Maya. So he thought it would be a good idea to do things that made her happy. As they sat along the banks of the river and waited for the sun to disappear over the horizon, Tej put his hand on Maya’s shoulder and again looked at her. This time Maya also looked right back into his eyes. He then put his hand in his pocket and brought out a Pen Drive.

On the pen drive was scribbled the words “Project MAYA”.

“This is my dream Maya. This is my life and only you can make it happen.” Said Tej.

“Why such a mystery Tej? Why can’t you tell me what is it about?” Maya was full of questions.

“I need you to go through each and every file in this pen drive. This, Maya, is what will turn our lives around. This is the wake-up call, and there is no better person I would want to be a part of it.” Tej said in a serious voice.

“Okay, I’ll study it. And yeah, I’ll always be there without you no matter what” Maya promised and hugged him.

Maya knew that she was right when she thought that Tej wasn’t in love with her. In fact, there was a wider picture of it. She just wasn’t able to see through it. But how could she even have, Tej has always been the mysterious kinds. What she was sure of was that now that he had opened up, her life was bound to take an entirely different course.

As the sun set, it was time for them to get home leaving the past behind while walking towards a bright future.

That night, the air in Maya’s room was filled with confidence and faith – self-confidence and trust in her best friend, Tej.

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Me and My Shadow | 2

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Previously on Me and My Shadow

Haunting Hour

Later that night, Maya impatiently twisted and turned as all her attempts to fall asleep had failed. Neither did the hot milk work and nor could music calm her restless mind.

“Arr”, she grunted and sat up on her bed.

The only thing on her mind was ‘Tej’.

Maya couldn’t get over the way Tej was staring at her. No, it wasn’t their first meeting, and no, Tej wasn’t new to her, and no, this was not the first time she had noticed Tej starting at her in a similar manner but, this was the first time upon asking Tej had very bluntly replied that he was staring at her.

“Why was he staring at me?”

“Well, maybe there was something wrong with my hair or there was something on my face…”

“But then why didn’t he tell me so?”

“Maybe he was just enjoying the moment.”

“But then what was that I saw in his eyes? That sparkle, that glow, that weird consciousness, what was that?

“I must be overthinking, or maybe was it, Lo…???”

“Arrrrgggghhhhh…creepy thought Maya!”

Maya knew that her mind and heart were playing games with her and she hated it. She considered herself to be a warrior who had no place and time for emotions in her life. (No, don’t get me wrong, it’s not that she didn’t feel for anyone, it’s just that she felt that emotions were the root cause of one’s weakness!)

But then what she couldn’t fathom was that why on earth was she thinking about Tej at this hour!? She felt all the more restless and reached out for her phone to see the time. It’s read 3:07 am.

“This is the haunting hour”, Maya giggled, “And maybe that’s why I am thinking about him.”

Actually, Tej was no less than “Casper(the friendly ghost)” in Maya’s life. They had met out of nowhere, they suddenly got attached to each other, and he knew everything about her, but she barely knew anything about him. Unlike a ghost, Tej didn’t trouble Maya, maybe that’s what distinguished him.

Maya knew that she had to calm herself down and the best way was to talk to Tej. She thought of calling him directly but then decided to check his social media to see if he online.

“Online”, it read.

She immediately typed, “Hey.”

“Hey”, Tej responded.

“What are you doing up so late? You are the one who goes to bed early right?”, Maya was curious to know.

“Actually, I’ve been thinking…oh never mind. I’ll sleep now you also sleep.” Tej told Maya.

“Actually, You’ve been thinking about Me!” Maya completed Tej’s message.

“Hey, how do you know?” He replied.

“You aren’t alone in it!” She replied.

*tring-tring* Maya’s phone rang

“Hello”, came the voice from the other side.

“Hello”, said Maya.

“You know, it’s until a week that we are gonna meet next. I wish we could catch up sometimes during the week.” Tej told Maya.

“How about tomorrow itself? I am anyway free and didn’t know what to do. You seem to be the perfect one to spend the day with.” Maya responded.

Maya wasn’t actually free, she had promised to take her mother out for shopping but none the less she couldn’t say “No” to Tej.

“Sounds cool.” Tej said.

“I’ll pick you up at around 10:00 am from your house”, Maya told him.

“Okay, so I guess we better sleep then else both of us will have dark circles”, Tej laughed.
His laugh even brought a smile on Maya’s lips.

“Good Night Tej” Maya whispered as a cool breeze blew in from her window.

“Good Night Maya.” Tej said in a low baritone.

As the night grew on them, both lay wide awake in bed still waiting for the sun to rise.

Peace! ~ αm ft. @365days365stories

Me and My Shadow | 1

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Maya

Sitting on the Edge of her home’s terrace, Maya was scribbling few numbers in a small diary. Seeing the sun started to rise, it was time for the girl to move back to her room. Taking a deep breath she leaves the terrace and sneaks into her room quietly, ensuring she does not wake up her parents. She laid back on her bed pretending to be asleep.

After a certain amount of time, her father woke up and left for his morning jog and mother entered the kitchen after her daily morning chores. Soon, Maya also entered the kitchen took some cheese spread applied over the bread and started to eat.

“Maya, Maya… MAYA!”. The girl’s attention is finally sought by her mother.

“Yes, Mom.”

“What were you daydreaming about again?”

“Nothing.”

“No need to lie to me, Maya.”

“Seriously Mom, I wasn’t dreaming about anything.”

“Fine, pass me the box of Cereals.”

Maya gives the box and leaves the table to get ready. As she is about to quit her Mother inquires where she is headed to but without even answering anything she leaves.

She drives to an isolated place where her farther’s old factory was located near a river side in her silver coloured hatchback. Entering the premises she sits back at the office where her dad once used to sit once and opens her dairy to continue the work from where she left it in the morning.

She is deeply involved in the work she has been doing until her phone starts ringing. She answers the call, “Hello.” “Hey! Where are you?” “Umm, you know where I am.” “Oh, that muck factory” “Yes. Tell why you called up?” “To ask you if you are gonna pick up your sloth face and come down to classes today?” “Of course, I’ll come down I wait for this class the whole week” “OK! So, now will you start moving otherwise you’ll be late for it then.” “Yeah I’ve already wrapped up my things and sitting in the car” “Cool, see you there. Bye” “Ba-Bye Tej.”

Tej was her best friend, but they had this weird connection which made Maya rely on him too high extend. Tej meet Maya when she had left her house and had headed to a different city after a huge issue which had to happen back her place making her take a huge step, but after she meets Tej, she decided to go back home. Tej had known everything about Maya in the last couple or years, but on the contrary, Maya hardly knew anything about Tej except he was the Sous Chef at a reputed restaurant and tech-savvy to good extend.

They both meet up just outside the gate of classes and have their usual conversation about the class and then head to the class. The classes were of product design. The only reason Tej accompanied her to this class was that he can learn things about the subject and Maya can have that perfect person to whom she can share her ideas in all.

After classes had got over, they go out for dinner at their usual spot, where Maya shows the design she had been working on from last couple weeks. Soon they finish up their discussion and dinner making it a perfect time to head back home.

On their way back home, Maya offered to drop Tej home rather than the usual bus stop drops, but instead caught him staring right at her. On asking what was he looking at so intently, he just shrugged and simply said “You!”, And once again the chef had balanced his emotions so precisely that Maya couldn’t distinguish one from the another. He still continued to be a mystery to her.

Peace! ~ αm ft. @365days365stories

Plucky of Pesos!

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We all have played at least one Video Game in our life for fun or for killing the time. It is always a delectable time when we storm through levels and move up to the final level of the game. While storming up we get several powerups, health booster, game coins and what not, let’s call them promoters for time being. These promoters of in-game help us to complete several difficulties in the game resulting to the accomplishment of the video game.

Promoters are safeguarded as prized possessions throughout the game for the final level in the game. As the final level are the most the perplexing ones, I am not denying this fact as these promoters do certainly help us take down the final level. But till what extent are they used for the final takedown, a roughly around 25-30% and bang then we realised all those levels which we kept on repeating until we jump to higher level, would have been a lot easier if we had to use those promoters in those certain levels it would have been a lot enjoyable to see those special moves.

It is the anxiety that does not allow to use those promoters ending us with loads of them left when the game ends which are of no purpose. 

Now consider the game as our life, they are similar in many perspectives. The promoters are our wealth which we keep earning money from one way or another. We safeguard the wealth just like we safeguard the promoters in the game, but is really that foolproof to safeguard it? Till certain level yes, but at the same time as I mentioned earlier that those promoters used at certain levels would have made a more enjoyable experience. Similarly when certain things are needed to be enjoyed you have to enjoy it.

I’m not here encouraging people to not save their wealth, as many will start pointing out that this wealth is not same as the promoters in game, the wealth can be used by our children and grand-children, in short the wealth is for our families but even after saving a decent amount one should learn how to manage the wealth in order to enjoy certain stages of their life in a sublime moments of our lives.

An adept even-steven of our wealth is essential for us and future in all perspectives of our lives making a momentous living for us as well our dear ones.

Don’t save what is left after spending; spend what is left after saving. – Warren Buffett

PEACE! ~ αm

Attraction? Love? Lust?

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We all have a day or other where we will be having or have a connection with a person of the opposite sex. But what was the connection really? Of Love? Lust? Or Attraction?

ATTRACTION.

This happens to any active person at least most of the time in the day. So that awesome looking guy who has the girl’s class or on the hot girl just passed by the man who gets the woos! But sometimes this attraction is not just temporary but more intense than the usual one, where we are seeking to gain the full attention of the other one and turn our attraction into love or something more concrete. We chat, talk, and stalk to gather each and every piece of information of the person so that we succeed in every single way having the hardest battle to fight for converting that Attraction into Love. But at the same time, this could be the worst phase where we try to get the best result out of our hard work to get that particular person’s whole and sole attention and love, we may end up being into some other soup altogether and making us doubt ourselves. But this should be a good point for us that we have received a rejection but this most of the times result into sadness making it undesirable for ourselves and for any others. But many take it in a positive way and try to keep improving them continuously.

LUST.

On lust, endless words are shared, this is more sort of a feeling mixed with your physical desires but just being libidinous is not essential for an actual relationship, it’s more than that. An understanding of that particular necessity of a human being. Most of the people are really shy to open on the lust side thinking what all labels would be attached to their name because at the end of the day our name is the only thing which we care about rather our feelings. I certainly feel that one should not hide our lust but at the same time should know certain limit till one share those feelings because we are not on earth to keep screwing around people for it. Rather the impression should be made so special that one does feel completed after sharing the bodies and getting a sense of completeness altogether.

For any particular person, it should be the last piece of all the jigsaws, but I’ve beheld certain stories where this was the stage before the feeling of attraction drops, just because the situation they are fallen into and stories do have a happy ending. Yeah, this cannot actually happen to each one of us, but it does happen.

LOVE.

It’s time to drop that essential light on the road which lies between Attraction and Love. “Love at first sight” this is the worst line I’ve ever come across because it should be said “Attraction at first sight” no one can fall in love just by a single sight it requires a certain period of time after which we start loving the person. So what’s love then? It’s a mixed feeling for sure in which we are attracted to the person as well we have a different type of attraction and lust level altogether. It’s a feeling which makes smile at any given time or situation. It is just that feeling where we know “everything gonna be alright” if you think that person is there in your life. One can portrait love in continuous fashion. Certainly one can only feel it perfect as per their definition of love, but the simple definition can be applied to everyone’s definition that’s “Happiness”.

When this happiness is achieved one will be forever attracted to that person and at the same time will have great satisfaction in the lust they share for each other.

By now you must be thinking what the big picture is in all this? The answer is we all are stuck in a situation where we believe our lust is our love, we are trying to fool ourselves into thinking that the physical satisfaction we are getting is the actual definition of love which ain’t the reason of our love. Our hormonal changes lead to some different ball game altogether. We are attracted to someone and then we directly jump to a later stage of lust and think we are in love, but that isn’t true we only satisfy our physical needs rather our emotional needs, making our lives more complicated than what we really have. Giving our physical require more curb than our emotional one leads to many deteriorations in one’s life.

The frequency of the one changing partners is way too crazy nowadays making it hard for us to really understand our feelings and making every other feeling tangled into these feelings. These three emotions carry one of the feelings together along the side of it, that’s “Caring“. Caring is the supporting actor in all these three movies of our feeling. Without that care, none of the feelings can really be successful each in their own perspective.

So next time when you are attracted don’t directly jump to final need, first be attracted fall in love with person’s minutiae then complete yourselves with the lust in a genuine way rather than to show off in your fraudulent social life which just a virtual space with no base.

“Love consists of this: two solitudes that meet, protect and greet each other” – Rainer Maria Rilke

PEACE! ~ αm

Where!?

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We all go through a phase of life where we not even a kid anymore not even mature enough to take our own discussions in our life (making it a bit awful!) So what really happening with us at this point in our life? I do not know what conclusion you may have concluded to, but I feel we are just trying to flip our life downside up or rather we can say, we are trying to balance our life between the maturity and immaturity. And this is what exactly we are doing in our life we are going insanely crazy, doing everything yet doing nothing.

Yes, we are at the age of early 20s to 25s, which is the dawn of your active crazy youth and a beginning of career-oriented life and you all will agree this is the best day’s of our life and yes with few worst day’s included in our package of best days. But the drill of our life is to achieve something in our life more than regretting the things which we never achieved or we did not attempt to do it.

We all have certain goals which may be a temporary goal or one which infused in our DNA, and yes, of course, there are few people without any goals at all. And with these goals, we get an extra bonus of pressure from people around us, with their various suggestion and expectation, is this what we are really expecting from them? The answer for most of us will is an NO as we want to play the game of life with our terms and condition. The struggle is so hard in maintaining all this is high enough to break down us fairly easily, but those who manage this struggle without really breaking down are the true heroes in their own lives.

People in this age frame are doing the most of the life like falling in love, getting married, having heartbreaks, losing virginity (with any medium), getting high, crying over lonliness, enjoying a new independence, joining a new job, screwing a job and giving a long shot for a developing a business (today, we call business as Start-Ups but they will remain as Business only), seeing other chasing the dreams, seeing other living a dream which we had once, trying to save money for future and then spending off that money on emergency situation, living lavishly on months start and on financial crunch at month end, shifting to a new city or state or country. The list is never ending in every aspect.

We simply struggle to find the correct path of life just to be Happy. Is it true to be Happy? I seriously doubt this we are in a race to be better than others because right from our childhood we are just compared regarding each and every aspect whether it may be our academic score or our extracurricular activities. This attitude of being better than others is somewhere sulking down on our day to day life in an indirect way.

But all this ain’t answering where we headed to in our life. So to sum all this I would like to mention that the best answer where we should head is, chase that dream which you always wanted to live in a smart way while being crazy enough to say to your grandchild that I do not have regrets about my life.

We all want the presence of love and care in our life but we keep running behind money and satisfaction to be maintained.

Believe in a Happier Tomorrow!

PEACE! ~ αm

The Essence of Affection

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A year ago a strange puppy came in our vicinity, looking like a Labrador but was not one. On my daily walk with my dog, the only thing I used to do is feed him some packets of biscuits or maybe some fresh milk. Due to my certain limitations, I could only feed him once. As this daily association of mine with him gradually increased, making an irresistible bond. And the most important part was that I named him “Creamy“.

He grew up fast and when he reached his fully grown size he sort of looked like the “Scooby” from the famous cartoon series, so most of the other people in the vicinity renamed him “Scooby” but for me, he was still Creamy.

A few months later a dog gave birth to a litter of pups and at the same Creamy started staying out of my front door, and guess what Creamy did with the litter of pups? He took real care of them by playing with them, feeding those puppies when we missed out giving food on time, and yes, the most important part was that he communicated with them in order to stay at a particular location so have an eye on them or letting us do so.

This became a daily routine for him, for puppies and surely for us too. So eventually, we became pet parents of 6 dogs and trust me it was not really easy to take care of so many dogs as the people in the vicinity tried to object with silly reasons as not to feed them or take care of but Creamy was our perfect helping hand for us.

This routine was carried on for months but lately, Creamy have started coming home less frequently and we were perturbed by this thing, so the search started as to where he usually started to live. A day ago we came to know where he was, he was taking care of the new litter of pups with the same extent of affection and love. But at the same time, his affection for me had not reduced even a bit, because when I called his name out he gave a break to those puppies and came along with me and later home and all the way back home he walked really close to me. He came home, spent a good time with me and family, of course, he played with puppies in the vicinity too and after filling his stomach completely he left to take care of the puppies he is with these days.

By now, you must be thinking why I am telling you this whole story. It’s because it gives out a lovely message that is, “People who realise what loneliness is, are always ready to be there for others!” And this message actually is not applicable to humans only, it’s applicable to all animals as well.

PEACE! ~ αm